Waiting

Waiting plays an important part of my life. “Wait upon the Lord, and he shall...”

I’m sick of hearing people talk about God’s will as though he’s going to plop a highly detailed plan for the rest of my life into my lap one of these days. I just have to pray hard enough. As we were reminded in class last week, God’s will is simply that we live in obedience to him. “Love the Lord your God with all your heart...” and “Love your neighbor as yourself.” It needs to be no more complicated than this.

So here I am, waiting. The word ‘waiting’ implies that there is something that is waited for, and thus the focus is upon the future. However, I try to ‘wait’ while still living fully in the present. That is, I’m not twiddling my thumbs, but rather preparing, training, readying myself.

In a sense I ultimately wait for death. Not death really, but what lies beyond it. Only there will I find full expression of worshipping God, complete fulfillment of who I am meant to be. In the meantime I act as best as I am able out of who I am to glorify God.

Which brings me to the question: what in the world am I supposed to be doing with my life? Recent circumstances have made this question more urgent for me... indeed, I feel as though I have a deadline by which I need to have my life figured out. Just kidding. I don’t feel pressure to ‘establish a career path’ or ‘set a goal to reach in fifteen years’ time’ or anything like that. But the fact of the matter is, the world runs on money, and I’m short of it. I am not interested in money for its own sake, but rather for the opportunities it provides.

I’d love to earn a decent amount and enjoy what I do... I know that’s asking a lot.

But here I am, all kinds of thoughts and options swirling around my head. I am reminded of my own brilliance: “We tend to follow people around.” This being the case, it seems likely that I’ll end up some place that I have connections. The question is, will they be connections I currently have or connections I create?

Time to quit rambling. I’ll get back to waiting, but waiting purposefully.